Smile!

Yesterday we met with Dr. Shirai and had a very nice visit until the fire alarm went off and the entire Holling's Cancer Centers had to be evacuated. Funny! It was sad to see all those chemo patients sitting on the sidewalk with their IVs. Anyway, Earl is feeling much better. All his labs came back good and he has decided to take a break from chemo for a while, maybe permanently. He is gaining some strength back and isn't quite ready to feel bad so soon with more chemo. We will let God work his plan and hope for the best. We had a nice day together and stopped for lunch on the way home. I think just knowing he doesn't have chemo in his near future made him feel so much better. His is greatly improving and recovering from that nasty pneumonia. I am thankful for the little improvements. We spent the evening watching the first game of the World Series, until I fell asleep~

Smile, though your heart is aching. Smile, even though it's breaking. When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by if you smile, through your fear and sorrow, Smile and maybe tomorrow, You'll see the sun come shining through...for you!

A little song I was listening to by Nat King Cole~

Donna

What if?

The past few weeks I have spent a lot of time in prayer. I have spent a lot of time remember all the good times we have had and it has been hard to see Earl so sick. He has slept a lot and I just sit and watch him. Sometimes I feel so hopeless, not knowing the fate of all this. And now I tell myself that I can't give up hope. God loves us so much and I know He wants the best for us. Hope is a beautiful thing, I can't let go of it. Not now, not ever. So, this led me to thinking, What if? What if Earl does improve? What if Earl does get that miracle that everyone is praying for? It could happen. We could look back on all this and tell everyone how he was near death and God saved him. It could happen, but it can't happen if we don't believe it can happen. So I cannot stop believing. Faith is believing without seeing.

Like David said..."Surly goodness and mercy will following me all the days of my life"

Keeping the Faith, Donna

Home Sweet Home

Earl is home from the hospital and doing better. He had a bout of pneumonia and is recovering. Doctors sent him home with oxygen and that is helping a lot. I was so afraid this time, he was so ill. We kept our faith and kept praying and God answered us. Earl has cancer, but that is not who he is. He is my wonderful Husband and Gift from God. I am so blessed to have experienced such a complete love. He makes me laugh and loves me like no one ever has. We are both stronger and better than we have ever been. Even though his body is weak and cancer is there, he is strong and full of life. I don't know what the future holds for us, but no one does. So for now, we will enjoy the beauty of today and be thankful for everything we have. People tell me all that time "Earl is so lucky to have you" but the truth is I am the Lucky one. Donna

Thrive in Peace

Hello All,

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Phil 4:6

Earl is resting at home. We have had a turbulent week. Friday he had his colonoscopy and even though we did not get home from the hospital until 11pm, (long story) the results came back good. We had our CT scan Monday and did discover that he has fluid in this lung and the cancer is now showing up in the liver. However, the liver is still functioning fine. Not quite what we were hoping but we are not broken. He is having the fluid removed tomorrow, a simple procedure-we were told. And then we will have to change to a different chemo to see if that will slow down this cancer. Still not sure when we will start the new treatment. The "spots" of cancer that show up in the chest and liver are VERY small and that's how we hope the keep them. Our Doctors words were" you are young and healthy and you still have many more options to fight this." We hope at some point to take a break from chemo as it wears on Earl and really makes him so tired. I have to believe that the day will come. So besides this little cancer thing, we are in love, happy and enjoy each and everyday to the fullest. Hope you are too! Donna